I started this blog just over seven months ago. Like most things I start, I had no clear direction or mission in mind. I just knew I needed to start writing, immediately.
And for some reason, I felt it was essential to just be me. It’s actually easier to write how we think we are supposed to write, and say the things we are supposed to say. It’s harder to just write from the heart.
At least it is for me.
As I go about my day, no matter what I am doing, there is this voice inside my head that is always questioning whether I’m doing the “right” thing. Does that ever happen to you?
Along side that voice is another one judging me.
That’s the voice of the outside world. Everyone else in the world represents that voice. “Why is she doing that?” “Who does she think she is? We don’t care about what she is writing!” I can hear the laughing and the condescension in that voice.
Maybe it comes from growing up one of many in a poor family. Maybe I didn’t get enough attention as a kid. Perhaps I could blame it on my mother for dying when I was eleven. Or maybe its just part of being human, and coming to terms with myself.
One of the best things to come from this blog is the “outside world voice” is starting to sound different. Little by little, I am beginning to hear acceptance in that voice. Every once in a while approval drowns out disdain.
And that’s because of you.
You are helping me dissolve some of those words I heard as a kid. I’m beginning to let your voice take over and override words I heard as a young adult. And most importantly, I am letting my inner voice speak loudest.
So, thank you for that. I appreciate you and your kindness and encouragement to keep going.
Because of your help, I was awarded Blog of the Year for 2017 by Nepaliaustralian and I humbly accept such a distinguished award.
Thank you for reading, for commenting and for your acknowledgment. And thank you for voting for me too.
I’ll keep writing, and hopefully I can help you too, and we will do this together.