You know when you have so much you want to do you don’t know where to start, so you don’t do anything at all?
Yeah, that has been me for the last few months. My mind is so filled with ideas and things I want to do and yet each day goes by and I haven’t accomplished even one thing.
Worse yet, I cannot seem to make up my mind either.
One day I was so inside my head the only thing I finally figured out I could do was to clean and organize the kitchen. I spent all day on my kitchen and in the end felt I had at least accomplished something!
Although it helped to get my kitchen all shiny and orderly, it did nothing to help me find clarity in the direction I should be heading.
Here’s the deal, I was supposed to have all my shit in one sock by the time I reached 60. That is why I started this blog, to explore who I was and find my real story; even the parts I didn’t know existed.
And right up until January of this year I was on a roll doing exactly that.
I felt really great about life and my direction and purpose and…well, you get what I’m saying. But with January came 2019 and time was running out before my big birthday.
So I started putting pressure on myself to do more and get my book done and have my path completely laid out like the proverbial Yellow Brick Road. Only I didn’t realize I would be encountering flying monkeys or a field of special poppies that would put me put me to sleep.
Once I woke up from the sidetracking poppies I stared doing some soul searching.
The first thing I recognized was I have to write the book for me, not my audience. I was getting caught up in what others wanted me to say, what others needed me to write and I came smack up against a brick wall. So I stopped writing.
As soon as I remembered to write for myself from my heart, the words began to flow again.
The next obstacle I figured out was what I want my new “name” to be. I will no longer be c
I will write a post all about that and share it later.
For now, I’m finding my peace again and it is time to put some energy into planning a party. Because apparently I’m turning 60 in just 35 days!